Yesterday I had quite a startling revelation about why I tend to stay fat. I hate running and walking, this is no shock, but I finally realized WHY.
Shoes don't fit me right.
I have known for years that most shoes are made in China, and the lasts tend to be Chinese- and Chinese women tend to have rectangular feet, like so .
Women of Celtic ancestery (of where the old Kaloti tribes lived- through parts of Germany and France as well, old central Europe) tend to have triangular shaped feet \/ like so. This is why Berkenstocks and the shoes made in Europe tend to fit people who've never been able to really find shoes that fit well- their last is based on the assumption of wider toes and narrower heels.
My feet are duck-shaped enough that I have an extra-narrow heel, and an extra-wide toebox area.
The last few days running around in the garden my feet have been KILLING me- cramping in the arch, lots of pain, lots of badness- and I finally realized that while I can shove my foot into a wide-with shoe with something to stop it from slipping off the back, whenever I do anything active, the balls of my feet and toes spread- and if they're squunched in the shoe it f'ing HURTS. This might also help explain my horrible sense of balance (or I might still just be clumsy).
When running hurts, you're less likely to do it. When walking hurts, you're less likely to do it.
I'm going to have to figure out how to make my own shoes for puttering around in the garden and working out, because I am indeed very tired of being fat, and this is a sily thing to hold me back. It makes sense, though- every time I've worked out I've ended up in pain, and just basic Skinnerian conditioning says that will make me AVOID whatever that stimulus is.
So, I need to change this, and then see if I can make any more progress.